Fanatic

[Ramona]

OK, this one is pretty crappy, but I found a piece in one of my notebooks the other day and I finished it...badly...and wanted to share it with you guys for some crit. It's about a obsessed fan of a celebrity.

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I really want to love you,
But I don't know if I can.
You really don't know me,
But I'm much more than a fan.

I know all your habits,
I question all your lies,
I know that when you speak to them,
They can't look you in the eye.

I've envied every autograph,
I've worked for every smile,
I've shown that I could do more,
But I'm not worth your while.

Tell me, tell me, who is it now?
Is it he with the fake teeth?
Why is it him instead of me?
You haven't seen me underneath.

You would think I'm just a fan,
And maybe it's all that I am,
But I could mean much more to you,
I could be your only man.