turtledovetears

[Ramona]

Any other Thursday
I would have picked up the phone
And called you
And let your smile carry through the surgically mirandized telephone wires

Any other Thursday
It would have calmed my daydoubts and twinged nerves: a warm spread of lukeflavored passion

But this Thursday
The bottom fell out of our wandering scheme
And the minutes ticked by juxtaposed with rings on the phone
And the wait; the pressure building up in my heart smashing my calm cool reason
Into tiny little shards of horridnightmares

And
When I finally got through, the tears running down my face, stung and
My speech ranrivers: muddled
Your softened tongue rattled my brain
Lost was all composure

Any other Thursday
I would have joked about your silly obsession with Man U
And the color red
You would have called my bluff and starkissed me thoughtfully
Any other Thursday
Jack would ask for advice with mesneNicki
And I would have made him
Blush the color of the februaryroses

But this wasn’t
Any other Thursday

Through the breakingballblasts
It made me heartcherish
What little we both have
And the time we with tremblehands hold it
Like lostlittlebutterflies
Until it flits away
In the black of smokerummbled
Antonym of a berceuse*

*a lullaby

by Pseudomuse